A sip of espresso + why I believe in angels

Yesterday I was out downtown and we thought we could have a cappuccino. We got out and it was pretty amazing for December: 8-9C' and almost a clear, blue sky. Of course, if you ask me, that's not normal and something 's  going on, but that's another story.


As we were hitting the coffee shop , I thought to change cappuccino and try an espresso instead. I knew it was stronger, and although diluted with water, it was still strong, but very tasty. I drank about half of the cup, while my husband was having a cappuccino. We hit back our home and I didn't felt the espresso effects until very late in the night: I wasn't feeling agitated in any way, but hour after hour have passed until I noticed it's 4:52AM! While still having an hour of sleep between midnight and 1 o'clock, at 5:50 I've manage to fall asleep again, this time thinking in my mind that I'm going to sleep until 9 AM...at least.


But no. At 6:40AM I woke up again, this time feeling more agitated than before. I already knew the reason for not being able to sleep, but I was totally blown by the fact that my pulse was slightly accelerated after abruptly waking up, as if I was having a nightmare. I know what I was dreaming, and it wasn't something scary. I then remembered that I recently {like yesterday!} saw a tv show where they were talking about angels and how angels can help us. (If you read my Romanian blog, you probably know that recently I've painted an angel in my art journal).
In the tv show, one of the people invited in the show was talking about connecting with our angels. He said that each and everyone of us have an guardian angel and we should first try to connect to our angel instead of praying directly to God. Not that praying to God is something wrong, but angels can bring our souls closer to the divine understanding.


I put my hands closer and begin to talk to my angel. It didn't last long, because my throat was hurting, so I decided to "speak" with my thoughts. I continued talking to my angel and asking to show me what is to be done in this situation, how can I calm my pulse and get rid of the  bacterial infection I believe is causing my pain in the throat, and in less than 10 minutes my pulse went down to normal and I felt so relaxed. Of course, I set myself to relax my muscles and my whole body. Of course, you may say it's a coincidence , and that you don't believe in angels. That is totally up to you. But I know that with angels or without angels, we can control the body processes, like body temperature, pulse and getting rid of light headaches. I know that because I did it only by thinking I am doing this and my body reacted accordingly to what my mind dictated. If you don't believe that, then look for the book "Mind over body" and you will see what the recent discoveries are saying. Oh, and by the way, the book was written by a Ph. Doctor in medicine.

September breeze

I'm on vacation. It's a lovely September weather, and it feels like there it's June, not September. I can hear children screaming on the beach, the waves slowly hitting the shore, the sun is terribly shining on the sky, and I'm having a frappuccino in my hotel room.

It's too hot to stay on the beach, and I'm not allowed to stay in the sun when is that hot and burning. In fact, none of us should stay out in the sun at the evening hot hours, although many are looking to get as much sun as they can get, forgetting that a nice healthy tan can be achieved only at the early hours of the morning and right before the sun sets in the evening. No need to burn your skin, ladies!

On the other hand, here are some vacation photos I did till now. ;) and there are many more, but it's hard to post them from my phone! :) Enjoy!

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the perfect sunset ;)

an a view from the hotel room

...and me!

The documented Life Project - Week 1

Have also posted about my week 1 journal on my Bubblews account. 

YEY! here's week 1 from the documented life project! I'm behind with posting about it, the project is already on week 4, but as I told you I have done all the three previous weeks. Here is week 1!

For the week one we were supposed to paint, draw or attach a photo with the front door. My door pattern is pretty hard to draw, so I've tried to draw it as simple as possible. Oh yeah, I gotta tell you this was a real challenge for me! Still, this is the original door pattern, and I'm more then happy with the result. When I first started to draw it, I didn't thought it's going to come out so beautifully!

I did sketch after a photo I wanted to attach here, but I've decided not to. The illustration should be enough to make an idea about it. 

When I've started to add color, I could see the whole picture with color and everything turned into a beautiful illustration! I sure have to create other sketches and paint them with watercolor, it was so relaxing painting this, even if it took me more than one day, giving the fact that I had to stop multiple times. 

But it doesn't really matter, as long as I managed to finish it up! What do you think of it? Are you part of the documented life project? :) 

I also wrote about the documented Life on Bubblews.

A little bit of this, a little bit of that...

We have good days, and we have bad days. This is one of those you feel like it will never end. I think I should learn some stress management lessons in order to calm down and relax in every given situation. And most of all, to learn how NOT to worry even when others next to you do. Luckily, I have my positive thoughts with me and I´m playing positive affirmations, too.
Meanwhile, I did some faces just to forget all about it and I want to share them with you. If you already follow my Instagram, Pinterest, Fashiolista or Facebook, you probably saw these posted in there.
I did the red hair today, but as you can see I like to work with many different girls at the same time and then come back and finish them. Some of them have to wait longer than the others, but in the end I manage somehow to finish them all. I guess it's because I don't have too many. ;)

This one is from early today, she on a small paper card, measuring 8,5cmX14,3cm Still needs a lot of work.

Just a sketch, but I'm pretty happy with the result

This one is just sketch with color pencils, but I love how it turned after all. 

I'll leave you with this whimsy girl I just love, with that purple hair with golden accents, looking straight at you. 

What do you think of them all? 

Hugs,

Cristinaღ

Give 'pause'

“You see, my friends, when you give ‘pause’, you ‘allow’ the Indwelling Spirit a chance to help you through suggestions and options on how to think and feel about a particular situation, event, or circumstance. By allowing this space, you are in essence saying, ‘Father, let your Will be done.’ When you do this, your spiritual vibration is elevated to allow the Father’s Will to pass through you and into the world. Many of you do this unknowingly and this is how love and light is transmuted from the Parent to the child. - The 11:11 progress group messages

 Believe it or not, this is a matter of how you perceive the world. It is how you see it and how I see it. You may believe in such things as prompts or not, I guess they exist for those who can see them. For those who are open enough to 'read' them. I don't always seem to know what they are 'saying', but they kinda offer me some kind of mind peace. Or maybe it is me who want to associate them with the calm, with the peace, with positive situations. I keep seeing 12:34 or 1:23 or 11:23 and that to me means that things are going to be more than just fine and that I have to continue doing whatever I am doing at the moment.
If you ever feel you don't know what to do next, just sit back and relax. "Pause" yourself. Things will settle down one way or another. I believe for every situation there is a solution, and even when writing this right now I don't have some clear situation in mind, just the feeling and the certitude that for every "problem" {like to call it "situation" rather then 'problem'}there is a waiting answer, staying still undiscovered. If you haven't read it by now, I kindly recommend you to get your hands on Angels Number 101: the meaning of 111, 123, 444, and other number sequences, by Doreen Virtue. (Hay House, 2008, USA), along with other books she wrote.I also like to visit angel 11:11 message board, where you can read about the 11:11 phenomena and other related.

In the end I'll leave you with a short story:

/...The other day I was out to pay some bills when I saw a woman craving for some food goodies. She was looking at the food-windows and then looking at her hand holding a few coins. Looking back at the window, and back to her hand. Near by there was a bus station and she was more likely waiting for the buss. I approached her and kindly ask if she wants some of that food she was craving for. She looked at me kinda surprised and speechless, being unable to understand what I am saying. I told her I saw her earlier looking into the show-windows and handle her 5 rons (about 1 dollar and a half). She looked back to be even more surprised than before. Some people feel offended and they don't want pitty money, some are just happy, but most of them don't think through this aspect and take the money in a blink. I left her decide whether it is going to be spend on that food she was craving for or on something else. This happened in Romania. This can happen anywhere around the globe. Be there and help if you can. The smile you'll receive in return is priceless. I just can't help doing this almost every time I get out, and most of the time I just help them with directions and that counts enormous when highly needed.

The change is in the air!

"WHAT DO YOU want? Most of us have forgotten how to dream outside of our sleeping world. For some reason, the little kid in us—the one who has no problem suspending reality in favor of Fantasy Island—has gone to sleep.Maybe it’s because all of our dreams have been shot down in favor of the practicalities of making a living and putting food on the table. Maybe we’re afraid to step out and take a chance to think of a world filled with unlimited possibilities. Reasons abound to justify why we don’t dream. All of my mentors and heroes are dreamers. If they can do it, why can’t I?"

And I gotta tell you: I sit back and look back into my life and see that nothing out of the ordinary had happened. And this has to change. Now. I mean NOW! 
What do you think needs to be changed in 2013? What are your dreams that you're keep thinking every day without doing nothing in return? 

The Love Bird

I got better now after feeling terrible these days, with a bad cold with high temperature and running nose, and sneezing...

I can tell you I draw this bird thinking of freedom, the emotion that sets your mind free and you put yourself at ease. The feeling is incredible, isn't it?

Love Bird, my inspiration

The Love Bird come into my life a few years ago, but little I knew at that time. I knew nothing much about it. I knew nothing about the beauty of life and I guess when I'll look back after some years I'll think the same about me now. But I understand now that it's more about what you feel, than what you think. The mind versus intuition. Intuition is something that kept me from doing stupid things and taking even more stupid actions. And I'm grateful that I've listened to that inner voice telling me all those "crazy, non-sense" words, because at that time they seemed crap for me, but got the direction after awhile.

If you haven't seen yet more photos on Pinterest, then click here!

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Refresh your dreams - Letter of the week (8)

Reading that Spanish edition of "Emotional Healing" (not sure if this is the official title for the English Version, what I'm reading right now is called "Curacion Emocional" in Spanish) I've felt the urge to go further and buy some more English/Spanish books. If my English were native and if I could write better, I will do it just like Kinsella. She thinkis exactly as I do. She sometimes feels the same, too. And God knows what else do we have in common. For me reading in a Foreign language is a pleasure, and sometimes it's an nightmare. Not actually a real nightmare, as I get to at least guess what's the meaning of an word or another, but because I have to stay super focused on the reading and not to lose myself into words. He! It's easy to say, a little bit hard to put it in practice, especially when you're reading in the metro.
But there we go with the list of hot spots. Don't expect something BIG, I just remembered I love Sophie's writing style after reading "Can you keep a secret?" back in 2009. And now I want more. And she wrote so many books since then...watch it below:

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The is always a first time for everything

Next week I'll have my first fly and I'm a little bit anxious about it. I've never been in an air plain and I've always wanted to fly and see how it feels. Or maybe that wasn't the real reason: the real reason I wanted so badly to fly is because I so much want to travel the world and see new different places and cultures. But this urge to see this and that got fast into regression when the crisis come over us and the hope for something better was vanished away. And the thought of relocation, too. I mean, there are people in Spain who cannot afford to pay the rent or the mortgage and what am I dreaming about?!?

But getting back to our trip, I truly think it will be marvellous, in that particular good way! And I'm going to enjoy every moment spent there. It's out first trip together on board and it's the first fly for both of us. What a beautiful trip will that be!

A perfect rainy day

This seems to be a perfect rainy day. I'm all alone, enjoying a glass of green juice/smoothie and making the most of it: relaxing in front of the computer writing this. Yeah, you probably would say that I should lay in bed with a cappuccino or hot chocolate. Maybe, but I got up today thinking that I should make this Saturday mine. And this is what I just did till now, when talking a break to finish my translation, then eat some almond cheese with tomatoes and union and ..uh, a little piece of avocado. .And now I'm going back to the kitchen to finish things up: meaning wash the dishes and prepare some avocado pate!!! And...ummm, some sponge cake,,maybe! I'll leave this open while I keep myself busy and come back to add a few lines and maybe pictures with food! yam!

I have the cakes in the oven and I'm waiting for them to bake! I also have a terrible (for me) headache, and I say terrible because I don't suffer from this very often, in fact, I'm even wondering if I don't have a low magnesium-calcium level or I'm not drinking too much water... :( Going to see the cake..

And the cakes are ready: not so sweet as I wanted them to be, just because I didn't want to put too much sugar and have them too sweet. BUT I can drop some fine sugar on them and they are sooo yummy! The thing is that doing house keeping and all those raw creams and pates took my appetit for sweeties. I have a coffee next to me, the headache is still there, but I would say the pain is a little bit softer than earlier. STILL, I cannot keep wondering where this pain is coming from!? I 've also took 3 calcium-magnesium pills (you can take up to 5 a day) and I was hoping this shall pass. But here we go again, I really feel dizzy, tired (I have worked a lot these days, been up early and went to bed late)

I'm having a bite of this nuts and cocoa cake and sip of this fantastic coffee I've made myself. BUT I really think I should lay in bed for a few hours or so, and even try to get some sleep. I will post some photos with the cakes later ;-)



EDIT: May 20, 2012
Here are the photos with my cakes :-) I made just two, so I won't eat too much of this! LOL

These two should be two hearts, one with blueberries and other similar fruits, and the other one with cocoa heart and nuts! Nuts about you! ;-) But they ended up being a little bit distorted - anyhow, I don't know where the blueberry one disappeared because I couldn't find it in the fridge. I guess my mum took it or my dad and eat it all ! Or some guesses came in and she offered them the treat...with lots of sugar on top, I may guess, because, as I was telling you, I have used so little amount of sugar!

Here is the core, so flossy! That's all I had, because the rest was "stolen"!

Letter of the week (4) - I know you from somewhere

We've spent a very nice Saturday in the park, first in the morning, then we come back in the evening. And the evening walk was even more delightful because of the soft wind blowing so nice after a hot day. If the evening walk was dedicated to move and stretch&yoga poses, the morning one was for hot pictures. Yes, I love this HOT word: HOT!!! It's already summer here, we love to walk in the park and wear soft transparent clothes. I have a lots of pictures today, about 30 or so, but only a few we really to die for. One of them is shown below and I gotta tell you I'm getting obsessed with detail photography! I love putting details in the focus and transform a simple ordinary photo into a stunning one!

I know you from somewhere is the title for the Letter of the week, but I have no inspiration nor the time to write this now. It's almost midnight and I'm pretty tired. I'll get back to this, I have so much to tell you!

What do you do when somebody reaches the end point?

You go crazy. Speechless. Your world seems to have crushed into millions of pieces. STILL, there is something you should think of: future is not that dark as you plant it into your mind at the moment.

The person is gone, you're not!

Think a little bit, nobody knows what's on the other side. No one can say if it's bad or good, if there's a green open field filled with poppy red flowers. But what they say is that there is a definitely greatest silence you've ever concur before. There is peace of mind, peace of the non-existing body and the peace of being one with the God Itself. I believe there is a state that everybody here is willing to achieve, but none can't because we are so small thinking, so limited in our thoughts, so limited in our beliefs. I've heard that there's a lot of happiness out there, but not in the way we see it or understand it right now.

The person in question is released.

As never before. They cannot feel anything but happiness, a truly release and there's no fear, no wonder, nothing but peace.They can see you crying, struggle into this hopeless situation, and they will feel bad about you. I believe people that leave this world want us to be happy, not crying and mourning ...

Women INPOWER!

Yes! March has arrived in town! This month is my month and for that I've bought all the glossy magazines for women that I could buy! Especially those including gifts! Among those, I can mention Cosmopolitan, JOY, Beau Monde, and others, but I'm thinking to buy even WOMENS and other magazines with gifts, if those gifts in question satisfy my interests when talking to beauty products.

Anyway, I have to go now, get my boots out of the house, wear my natural smile and buy some great gifts! ;-) see you all later!

Holi-Holi-Holiday!

I'm dizzy. And lazzy. I would rather read my "With every day" romance book than to pack my things. Even if I'm packing for the sea side vacation which I expect for so long. And maybe that's because I've heard some news about the breaking weather or the poor water condition. The fact is that I'm not in the mood because this is not what I so much wanted for our holiday. There's nothing sure that we will somwhow manage to go to Greece at the end of the summer, somewhere in August or Septeber when we weather is very warm and it's a pleasure to be there.
Well, instead of Greece I got Black Sea again and that's not the best option so far. We have to stick with it and enjoy our trip to paradise. I'm greatful I can see any sea this year, when others cannot even leave their houses for one weekend! I'm more concern about the sea weed being present into the water, making it very unpleasant.

I'll go back to packing...and then to that fancy reading!

I just got the answer

Yeah. just hitted me this morning when I was making my coffee : from all those things messed up in my life, one is for sure the fact that I'm still living with my parents. I love my parents and I'm happy I can still be at the same table with them every day. I come to the age that I almost feel they are growing so old that I can barely want to leave them. And that's not good for me. Nor for them. Then why am I still here? Because I have no choices. No money to move on my own. No possibilities to have my own house, not even to pay a rent. That because I don't want to be a slave again. NOT anymore. I feel I don't want to play this (corporation) game ever again. Going to work 8-10 hours a day won't worth all the money in the world~! I don't want to end up as a piece of poorless girl with no family of my own, being unable to smile to the sun, I want to actually relax after work, I want to be happy! And this is happiness for me: to do whatever you like (and enjoy and feel love for) and earn as few as you need, as much as you can take your head on the shoulders without being drawn in the process.

But I cannot do all this things without leaving the nest. I have to do something to {un-block} this situation. I'll never be a 100% a grown up responsable person until I do something about it.

what's with this back pain?

After all, today may be a rainy day after the day it started with a lot of sun smiling at my happy face. :-) I woke up early, at 7:30Am and got my b/f into shape for a new day of work! Then we had some breakfast, put some clothes on and hit the door. We actually step outside with a coffee {vanilla and caramelo} frappe in mind, and end up on a fancy terrace down town. It was nice, but not very quiet. The cars were running by making a lot of noise, but we just had our coffee and smile to the world.

Well, the things are not that pinky as I painted them to be, but at least we try out best. My b/f is frustrated because of work, I'm in the middle of a job requiting and I have to pass some tests before they accept me for this job, we are planning to go on vacantion this summer - twice actually - and we are very tight with the money: he wants to leave this job and stay focused only on web-design presentations, to take some small jobs and make a portofolio so he can later rely on the earnings from this job. But it's catchy, because as soon as he will leave his actual job, he will be out of money for a while - or at least with a very few he saved for this - and he is worried about this: what if he's not going to make it, what is he is not capable to undergo this and so on. He is even thinking that I may be leaving him because he has no money! That's a totally bullsh#t and I had to assure him that everything is  going to be fine, he doesn't need to be worry about this. I haven't told him this, but he really made me feel bad and unconfortable saying and believing that!

What I'm worried about now is my back pain. I got this pain from about 5 days now and I suppose is because of my computer working and inactivity. I'm not a sporty person and I don't know if I'll ever be, but at least I should try to move my ass more ofter in the park, jogging and stuff. But I just can't do this all by myself. I need somebody to be with me ...anyway, this is not a good moment to start running here and there, not until I get to see my doctor and find out what the huch is going on and most of all ---- what is to be done!  Oh! and another thing. Yesterday I had my blood tests done and I can wait for the results. Unlikely, I'm not scared, but anxious to find out the result and take action - if needed. I'm saying that because of my 80-90% raw food diet that I'm taking from about 4 months now (4 months on 11.05.2011). I just realised now that are 4 months, and not 3! God! I hope I can still eat some fish sometimes. Anyway, because I was affraid or not, I just had some cheese from time to time, very little few pieces of cheese. It was OK I huess since I was not in stomach pain and the next day (after eating that) I eat only raw food. But the thing is that I want to eat some eggs and cheese from time to time, let's say once at 2-3 weeks or so.
That's OK from now. I got a terrible back pain (but I'm sure there are pains worse than what I feel right now~) and I'll just run from the computer! lol~

Full Moon!

Hi!

Last night was foll moon and I was very nervous. No panic attacks, but still there were some argues I didn't liked at all: like me having a fight with my mom for nothing, meaning no important thing, we were just arguing. I didn't want that to happen and look that IT really happened!

Now I'm a little sleepy and I wanna sleep a little bit.

Kundalini awakening

Last night I had a panic attack once again.
It was provoked by a book I'm reading right now, Guérison spirituelle et immortalité, which presents the Kundalini awakening, very well described in here as a state of human awakening to its deepest inner self. I think what made me enter this panic attack was connecting the books facts with some real fact of my life. In the process, the Kundalini energy is going through all the 7 chakras, from the back lowest point of spinal column, arousing to the last one situated in the head. This process can take a few months, but it can also take a few years, it depends on the person preparation for this state of being. One may be afraid and as we all know already, fear makes us weak and unprepared for the changes. We are afraid to do a thing or another, thinking that may cause a change or changes in our lives, but what we don't want to accept it that changes are inevitable and we have to leave them happen. Let them be. Emerge. 
The process is complicated, and, if you don't realise what is going on with you and your body, you may be considered as insane. With this diagnosis you can only take some pills and medication that will oppress the Kundalini Energy for rising through its last chakra and to illumination: when the Kundalini energy has emerged through the last chakra, the body and mind are relieved and you can then feel the beauty of life: no panic, no stress, no worries, no headache, nothing, but a totally peaced mind and body. The taste of happiness through the spiritual evolution.