A sip of espresso + why I believe in angels

Yesterday I was out downtown and we thought we could have a cappuccino. We got out and it was pretty amazing for December: 8-9C' and almost a clear, blue sky. Of course, if you ask me, that's not normal and something 's  going on, but that's another story.


As we were hitting the coffee shop , I thought to change cappuccino and try an espresso instead. I knew it was stronger, and although diluted with water, it was still strong, but very tasty. I drank about half of the cup, while my husband was having a cappuccino. We hit back our home and I didn't felt the espresso effects until very late in the night: I wasn't feeling agitated in any way, but hour after hour have passed until I noticed it's 4:52AM! While still having an hour of sleep between midnight and 1 o'clock, at 5:50 I've manage to fall asleep again, this time thinking in my mind that I'm going to sleep until 9 AM...at least.


But no. At 6:40AM I woke up again, this time feeling more agitated than before. I already knew the reason for not being able to sleep, but I was totally blown by the fact that my pulse was slightly accelerated after abruptly waking up, as if I was having a nightmare. I know what I was dreaming, and it wasn't something scary. I then remembered that I recently {like yesterday!} saw a tv show where they were talking about angels and how angels can help us. (If you read my Romanian blog, you probably know that recently I've painted an angel in my art journal).
In the tv show, one of the people invited in the show was talking about connecting with our angels. He said that each and everyone of us have an guardian angel and we should first try to connect to our angel instead of praying directly to God. Not that praying to God is something wrong, but angels can bring our souls closer to the divine understanding.


I put my hands closer and begin to talk to my angel. It didn't last long, because my throat was hurting, so I decided to "speak" with my thoughts. I continued talking to my angel and asking to show me what is to be done in this situation, how can I calm my pulse and get rid of the  bacterial infection I believe is causing my pain in the throat, and in less than 10 minutes my pulse went down to normal and I felt so relaxed. Of course, I set myself to relax my muscles and my whole body. Of course, you may say it's a coincidence , and that you don't believe in angels. That is totally up to you. But I know that with angels or without angels, we can control the body processes, like body temperature, pulse and getting rid of light headaches. I know that because I did it only by thinking I am doing this and my body reacted accordingly to what my mind dictated. If you don't believe that, then look for the book "Mind over body" and you will see what the recent discoveries are saying. Oh, and by the way, the book was written by a Ph. Doctor in medicine.

We can heal ourselves! {mind over body}

Hi everybody! I just have to share this with you guys. I know we have the power to heal ourselves, our mind is capable of doing great things, having an enormous power over our body! So, if you think you're getting better, this is what is going to happen to you! Be careful what you set your mind to!

Watch the video below and tell me your impressions.

Life it's a playground

I've been waiting for this moment for so long. I so much wanted to try this and see what comes out of it, that I cannot even believe I was just about to give up. The reason I haven't is because my husband remind me why I am doing this and how badly I need this. It is going to be IT or ...not. One way or another, I have to try this if I want to move on. If I want to look forward and find my way. I got so many questions ans so many scenarios that I've come to the conclusion that none of this can't be sure. They are all thoughts dancing up and down my head. I will know for sure probably on Friday, but I'll know the non-official results on Wednesday at noon.

Of course, medicine it;s not an easy faculty. There will be 6 years and I'll have a lot of work for that matter. I'll have seminaries, lectures, practical courses and most of all, lessons among dead bodies, dissecting them step by step in order to learn the mysteries of the human body. It will a long way. But in this journey I'll find great stories, meet wonderful people and learn whatever it is needed to become a great doctor.

It's very late right now and I'm going to shut this down. Next 2 days will be full and I'll have to make the most of it.  See you soon, with or without it! ;-)

PS. I have to write about Barcelona and my dreams to move there (at least during the summer).

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Just figured out.(DO NOT LOOK/OPEN if you can't stand the blood)

Warning! DO NOT LOOK/OPEN if you can't stand the blood or things related! Explicit content!

Medicine can only be learn by seeing things. And where do you get to see the best videos ever? On YouTUBE, of course! So I just pop into some medicine videos very well explained. In fact, I already had a playlist called Well Medicine in which I've saved the most interesting videos related to medicine!

In fact, this is what I'm going to do tomorrow to get some understanding on the nervous system and other human systems!

A note

Intro: I cannot remember when I wrote these lines, they were saved in a notepad, so I cannot see the date or time, but I believe it was somewhere in October-November 2011.

I'm sitting here in my old-fashioned chair, in this magnificent big room, with charming curves and tall walls. It's past midnight and I'm a little dizzy. I had a coffee at 4 pm, which is totally unusually for me; on top of that, I also had an energizing cocktail at 3 pm and some Goji fruits at 6 pm. What came out of this? Well...a so-called "not in the mood" stage which I have to confront with and make it disappear. After all, it will pass by its own when the moment is right. I already have that dizziness I told you about, but still have so many gains to write some thoughts here.

Well, recently I just figured out what I really want to do. Not that I didn't know already, but I was...afraid to accept it, that in this moment, I mess up things so bad I don't know how to pull this in a good light. I have missed the chance to be in the same group with the girl I was talking for bout two years now, a girl from another town who wishes so much to be a dentist, that she's not thinking 'what about that', how about this' and so on. SHE is JUST living the moment, and the moment is now, is hers. Why? How? Well, she looks right forward to her dream and stands up for it. I just had the "not so good for this thing" and look how I ended. Is this destiny?


And there was another notepad saying:

So that was the thing, I thought I was too little to make it. I arrived home, and I start writing about it. Where was this fear come from? It was something beyond my understanding or was it inside me? However, there was fear. And fear has nothing to do with success. Nothing.

I am LOVE (Building my future)

This is when my future starts. As I've told you, I thing I've manage to figure it out what is what I want: to have a flexible, home, online-like job and to work from where ever I want and whenever I want, to be able to choose my  working time, when to sleep, when to eat, when to work! And all this are soooo possible right now, right in this moment! It all starts in here, starts right now! I have to believe this and make it true as no body is going to believe it for me, and even so, I HAVE TO believe in it! So I've decided to do more work and actually do what I want: handmade earrings and accessories and then sell them to people that appreciates the art of uniqueness at a fair price for me and for them. And I've just realized WHY I haven't sold anything until now: is because I haven't trust myself for what I am, a pure, unique person with beautiful, magnificent talent of doing special things. I work with LOVE. I am love!

This is what I most want to know. WHAT IS MY DESTINY? Why I am on this Earth? Why I came here? What is my mission? I have to find the answer at that question and in order to do that I'll have to follow my intuition, let go with the wind, with the race...be here, right here and right now. I cannot be somewhere else, but NOW. let the show begin!

3 Things to do this month

This month is the start for the spring and there are some things that you absolutely should not miss this month! At least, I know I won't!

1). Flowers, flowers...
First of all, I want a month full with flowers of all kind. Flowers are very expensive on March 1st and March 8th, which are known to be the women's days and flower shops are into taking all the tribute for that, blowing the prices for every single flower. But after March 10th, things tend to set down and you can actually buy flowers at their real price.
2). Smile more often.
Yes, I like to believe I'm a smiley person, but am I...really? I mean, I like to think I'm an optimistic powerful woman, but when it comes to really do the things, it seems harder than expected. A smile shouldn't cost that much. Right?
3). Focus on things and actions that really really matters.
Like studying for my medicine admission and focusing more on chemistry. Reading more books and spending less time "flickring" the internet and Facebook or Yahoo! messenger.

All that said, I really think I should come back to this posting from time to time, like once a week, just to remember what I set my mind to!

It's really about listening

Sometimes life gives us signs we just don't want to see. This is how it was when I went to meet a friend met over the internet a few months ago: she was really into medicine, really decided to go for it, really over 29 and I said 'yeah, I'm not the only one over....some age now that chooses medicine'. I'm not the only crazy doing it. Or at least thinking about doing it...

But this is a long story, want to write more in detail about it - but I just realized that is more important to life now in this moment when I'm at my b/f's house than to type some skinny words in here. I mean, I can do this tomorrow when he's at work. :-) This is just a note to remaind me I need to write about this friend, about our visit to the faculty of medicine and how it was...

Note: I've met with my friend on Feb 23th.

Time for tea, please!

Yes, again another time no posting.
This time is less time as was before. As reading my writings I've noticed some mistakes in the process. But I guess you all got it right.

Well, what happened lately? Very much had happened and very much is going to happen, of course. First of all, I have to complete my last writing and tell you I did not sustained that exam because I was afraid not to pass it, and more than that, I was afraid I'm going to pass it! And this was jut about to happen if I were there to sustain that exam. The admission grades were very low and I'm sure my grade could very well be over 8,50. But I wasn't there. That's it. And I'm even thinking it's better that way. What I'm going to do with medicine? Am I ready for such thing? Can I cope with it? I know, you'll say I worry too much, thinking too much and balancing too much, but this are true issues to think about. Can I manage this? Yes, I can manage everything, but I don't know if I still got the power as I'm hitting to change the 2 with the 3. eR?