Letter of the week 16

It's raining like crazy. There are less than 12 degrees Celcius outside and the sky looks pretty mad for this hour. It is June. Really?

This weather is nothing common for June, and it's affecting us all. Headaches, general ill feeling, bone pains, etc. are what I"ve heard my friends complaining - and we are not elderly people!

Anyways, what's worse is that after all these really cold days of June, July is ready to break in with dog days and all that...we are expecting up to 40 degrees and to tell you the truth, I think they are not giving us the real temperature because people would freak out. Temperatures like that in central Europe were not common in the past. But as the years pass, the global heating temperatures go off the edge here, too.

I used to love summers. Really. They were my best friend when I was a teenager and in my very young adult life. What they've become...I can't say I love that much.

To sweeten up a little bit the evening, after we came back from down town, we have some amazing cocas, a Spanish disk we "faked" in our own style: took slices of homemade cheese rolled pie, covered them with a slice of pressed cheese, placed them into the oven tray after preheating, and took them out after 12 minutes. Can't say how amazing they taste! Water-mouthing bits of happiness on a plate! We served them with tomatoes slices and a little bit of dill and oregano on top!

I hope you all will have a wonderful week!

VLOG May 30, 2015 - Canvas |Meditation|

Hey there creative souls! This is what's new around here lately and I found that it's way better to record video blogs rather than to write them down. This is my first vlog (or at least the first first I get to publish), so be patient with it! ;) 

So what's new? Well, I know I haven't posted here in a month, but you know where I post at least twice a week, on creativemag.ro! 

This month flew by and I feel so happy with summer approaching so fast! I wouldn't mind this weather all year long, but I know that's not possible, at least not where I live. 

So this is it...jump in and enjoy!

Another week begins

It's 11.11.2013 and it's the first day of November when there is actually cloudy outside. We got used very quick with high temperatures for November and the shining sun feeling like 27 degree in the air! No more of that now! We'll have to bear with this till Christmas. Or maybe not. Maybe the sun is planing otherwise. Either way, I have prepared myself for winter: have been taking lots of sun for Vit. D and lots of happy from the kids running and laughing around me when I was out for a walk.

With all of that said, I cannot help feeling dreamy. If it's the monotone November or the waiting for Christmas, I cannot tell. I think is a little bit from both of them. Knowing that another year is close to an ending and that Christmas is so close that I can even hear the carols. Maybe that's why we have Christmas at the end of the year, after November, so everybody can chill and sing to the joy of life. 

A little bit of this, a little bit of that...

We have good days, and we have bad days. This is one of those you feel like it will never end. I think I should learn some stress management lessons in order to calm down and relax in every given situation. And most of all, to learn how NOT to worry even when others next to you do. Luckily, I have my positive thoughts with me and I´m playing positive affirmations, too.
Meanwhile, I did some faces just to forget all about it and I want to share them with you. If you already follow my Instagram, Pinterest, Fashiolista or Facebook, you probably saw these posted in there.
I did the red hair today, but as you can see I like to work with many different girls at the same time and then come back and finish them. Some of them have to wait longer than the others, but in the end I manage somehow to finish them all. I guess it's because I don't have too many. ;)

This one is from early today, she on a small paper card, measuring 8,5cmX14,3cm Still needs a lot of work.

Just a sketch, but I'm pretty happy with the result

This one is just sketch with color pencils, but I love how it turned after all. 

I'll leave you with this whimsy girl I just love, with that purple hair with golden accents, looking straight at you. 

What do you think of them all? 

Hugs,

Cristinaღ

Give 'pause'

“You see, my friends, when you give ‘pause’, you ‘allow’ the Indwelling Spirit a chance to help you through suggestions and options on how to think and feel about a particular situation, event, or circumstance. By allowing this space, you are in essence saying, ‘Father, let your Will be done.’ When you do this, your spiritual vibration is elevated to allow the Father’s Will to pass through you and into the world. Many of you do this unknowingly and this is how love and light is transmuted from the Parent to the child. - The 11:11 progress group messages

 Believe it or not, this is a matter of how you perceive the world. It is how you see it and how I see it. You may believe in such things as prompts or not, I guess they exist for those who can see them. For those who are open enough to 'read' them. I don't always seem to know what they are 'saying', but they kinda offer me some kind of mind peace. Or maybe it is me who want to associate them with the calm, with the peace, with positive situations. I keep seeing 12:34 or 1:23 or 11:23 and that to me means that things are going to be more than just fine and that I have to continue doing whatever I am doing at the moment.
If you ever feel you don't know what to do next, just sit back and relax. "Pause" yourself. Things will settle down one way or another. I believe for every situation there is a solution, and even when writing this right now I don't have some clear situation in mind, just the feeling and the certitude that for every "problem" {like to call it "situation" rather then 'problem'}there is a waiting answer, staying still undiscovered. If you haven't read it by now, I kindly recommend you to get your hands on Angels Number 101: the meaning of 111, 123, 444, and other number sequences, by Doreen Virtue. (Hay House, 2008, USA), along with other books she wrote.I also like to visit angel 11:11 message board, where you can read about the 11:11 phenomena and other related.

In the end I'll leave you with a short story:

/...The other day I was out to pay some bills when I saw a woman craving for some food goodies. She was looking at the food-windows and then looking at her hand holding a few coins. Looking back at the window, and back to her hand. Near by there was a bus station and she was more likely waiting for the buss. I approached her and kindly ask if she wants some of that food she was craving for. She looked at me kinda surprised and speechless, being unable to understand what I am saying. I told her I saw her earlier looking into the show-windows and handle her 5 rons (about 1 dollar and a half). She looked back to be even more surprised than before. Some people feel offended and they don't want pitty money, some are just happy, but most of them don't think through this aspect and take the money in a blink. I left her decide whether it is going to be spend on that food she was craving for or on something else. This happened in Romania. This can happen anywhere around the globe. Be there and help if you can. The smile you'll receive in return is priceless. I just can't help doing this almost every time I get out, and most of the time I just help them with directions and that counts enormous when highly needed.

OK, I'm way behind with posting new stuff I've done {and I've done a lot of!}, but I'll get back to you as soon as I can, and that means today or tomorrow. Just wanted to tell you that I'm super excited about the FACEcinatinggirls online course I've singed in on May 15th, and I can't tell you how much fun I'm having creating this beautiful faces all over again, always with a different face, different expression, different view. I'm so excited that I can even dream them during the night! ;) I don't know why I have a feeling that I'm not the only one here. ;D
So..I'll be back with the faces and with some necklaces I've created!

The change is in the air!

"WHAT DO YOU want? Most of us have forgotten how to dream outside of our sleeping world. For some reason, the little kid in us—the one who has no problem suspending reality in favor of Fantasy Island—has gone to sleep.Maybe it’s because all of our dreams have been shot down in favor of the practicalities of making a living and putting food on the table. Maybe we’re afraid to step out and take a chance to think of a world filled with unlimited possibilities. Reasons abound to justify why we don’t dream. All of my mentors and heroes are dreamers. If they can do it, why can’t I?"

And I gotta tell you: I sit back and look back into my life and see that nothing out of the ordinary had happened. And this has to change. Now. I mean NOW! 
What do you think needs to be changed in 2013? What are your dreams that you're keep thinking every day without doing nothing in return? 

Another autumn night

Silence. Just the rain drops dancing on the asphalt. Silence. Just the rain in the night and its beautiful refreshing smell. After a beautiful warm autumn day, which can be very well called a genuine summer day, the rain came in town. We were expecting this to come, but I thought it will be colder than it is for this hour. You can actually leave the window open and listen to the rain drops. You can enjoy it to its full, thinking of the next summer. Oh, the summer! I already miss the warm days, precisely because this summer was too - WAY TOO HOT - to enjoy it. We had over 40 for more than 1 month and that was terrible.Having 40  and something during the day(not in the sun!), but 24 or so during the night was a ....nightmare!

It started to rain even more. I can hear some cars passing by and I see the public light going on and off: they didn't fix it. It's been like that for more than 2 years now, as I recall. I've closed the window and come back to my laptop. It's a lovely autumn night and I should go to sleep with my Sex at Dawn which I hold next to my bed.

And here it's the reality - letter of the week 10

I can be mean sometimes. Especially when not knowing the difference between a person in need and a "business beggar". It's when you find your peace and get all the suddenly you get interrupted by one of this kind of people who are begging all day long for different things: there are ones who say they need money for food, others to raise their children, and others to buy medicine. The one that came towards me was one from the last category, the one saying (not to write pretending) she needs money for medicine. It was a woman, 68 years old, probably single, with kids out of the country, all forgotten about. Where are all this practically disappearing and why? Why do they just leave like that and never return? How they can live with it? What we can do to help this kind of people who worked their asses all life to get a miserable retirement pension?
I was mean because I thought she needs money for drinking something, but I soon realised that she's not pretending. At least I hope so. That's the thing: I cannot tell for sure. When can we know for sure when there's really need and where is a business out of this?

Refresh your dreams - Letter of the week (8)

Reading that Spanish edition of "Emotional Healing" (not sure if this is the official title for the English Version, what I'm reading right now is called "Curacion Emocional" in Spanish) I've felt the urge to go further and buy some more English/Spanish books. If my English were native and if I could write better, I will do it just like Kinsella. She thinkis exactly as I do. She sometimes feels the same, too. And God knows what else do we have in common. For me reading in a Foreign language is a pleasure, and sometimes it's an nightmare. Not actually a real nightmare, as I get to at least guess what's the meaning of an word or another, but because I have to stay super focused on the reading and not to lose myself into words. He! It's easy to say, a little bit hard to put it in practice, especially when you're reading in the metro.
But there we go with the list of hot spots. Don't expect something BIG, I just remembered I love Sophie's writing style after reading "Can you keep a secret?" back in 2009. And now I want more. And she wrote so many books since then...watch it below:

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I'm currently setting another theme.

Don't be surprised to see all kind of colors, themes, shapes, etc.
I'll be back!

Y decir que la politica no es algo...

Mi madre es acostumbrada tener siempre razón, pero sin embargo no la tiene en todos los casos. Y por esto  se discuta mucho.
Hoy tuvimos un huésped inopinante y las cosas se precipitaron un poco cuando mi madre empezó con la política. Nuestro huésped empezo a criticar el actual presidente y su política, sinedo perfectamente convencido de que debería dejar la presedencia y dejar que otros se preocupe de nuestra pais. Nada más verdadero que eso, pero en ningun momento no debemos permitir al instalar la dictatura en nuestra país. Esto es lo que el no vea...
[.....]

¡hasta pronto!

The beauty and the pain

Wonder: why people feel the pain so differently? Is there a link between the body and the mind?! Are those who believe are stronger, stronger then the others?!

I had to see the dentist for so many times and I had so many problems with my teeth, but every time I went to see the doctor and the procedure implied an injection to calm the pain, I was told that I have a better reception to pain. Why is that? It is known that when you're afraid of the procedure you tend to feel the pain even more badly than actually it feels. And I Believe it's true, even if last time I saw my dentist he told me that I'm going to feel more pain with the paladin injection, it wasn't like that at all: the pain was as usual, just a pinch and that was all! ;-)

And I kiss the rain again

After so many hot summer days, we have rain tonight. It's such a beautiful feeling the moment the rain drops kiss the asphalt. It smells sooo good and feels so natural. All the hot atmosphere is in my bedroom now, and in other bedrooms, because we have 25 degree outside, but inside are at least 29! Saint God we have rain! And that got colder outside otherwise I don't know...

I', going back to my letters, I want to have this finished asap!

Sex and the girl friends

As I was watching the sex and the city tonight, I've realised that every woman has a little bit of the characters: I'm a little Samantha bitchy, I'm something of Charlotte, I'm more like Carrie (except I'm not a smoker!), and just a little bit of  Miranda. And the friendship "dance" the all 4 are playing: nights out, early-mornings and crying desperate cell phones they give and receive. I realize that I'm more a men's friend  not becaouse I don't like women friends, but because I had no goody-women-friends with whom I could actually talk and not feel uncomfortable! Or being criticized! Like all women tend to do when you're our of the moral social believes, trying to be yourself and ending up with no real girl friends, because they are all afraid of who you really are or who you may become. Is that so important to women, that they leave behind a friendship!?

YES, it is. Most of them would leave in a blink. But are they right?! It's really such a big thing this social label you get to wear when you grow up and people expect you to act in some particular way? I guess I've never been a 'playing by rules girl', but I've known how to balance the truly me with the so wanted social copy of what I should be considering to others' opinion.

What do we do when we cannot say goodbye? - Letter of the week (6)

I say goodbye to things in my life that are blocking my spiritual growth.

There are moments when you want to leave the past behind and start fresh. When you truly have the will to move on, but you feel there's something left behind, something ...unfinished. And that it's true. You're totally entitled to feel this way. Sometimes we cannot let past behind if we never had the chance of saying "good bye". And we feel like's something unfinished there that needs to be done and you think you have no idea on how to do that.

The past is gone, the future uncertain. Today is now and I face it head on.

I'm not referring here to the people that have passed away and we didn't had the chance to say our last "goodbye", but to the ones that left our lives without actually saying a thing. Why people choose to be so cruel? Do they hide or something? can't stand having their last talk with the person they want to exclude from their lives? And why is this "unfinishness" feeling so badly? Why we feel this urge of finishing it?

I have one million thoughts about this. I feel sometimes I can let it go and never look back. I really do feel so. But then something happens and I'm facing again the person who have left so abruptly. Literally face it. And don't know how to manage my feelings, what should I act and what should I say if necessary. I guess sometimes all you have to do is just let it go. It may seem easy to say and hard to do, but I guess it's up to you if you can do it or not. You should have no problem, especially if you focus on present, that way you don't have to worry about the past.

I release my chaotic monkey mind. My mind is clear of distractions. I am focused.

The difference between "bad" and "badly"

As I  say the other day, I'm constantly looking for inspiration and new interesting stuff. I just found one of these interesting things in the writing niche, in a blog where is explained the difference between "bad" and "badly". I think I know the difference and would have use the proper word without actually knowing or thinking too much, just after the way it sounds. I'm not an English native, so this article is of a great help. ;-)

The text article:

Here’s something that writers often mix up. When you use verbs that express a state of being rather than an action, like become,feel, seem, smell, sound, taste, you follow them with an adjective, so they are not treated like adverbs. Do you remember the rule about adverbs—they usually have ly at the end? Here’s how you use these types of verbs:
I am fine, he became sad, she feels bad [not badly], they felt ill, you seem happy.
If you say “the fish smells bad,” you mean it stinks. If you say “the fish smells badly,” it means the fish has a poor sense of smell.
If you say “I feel bad,” it means you are sad or sorry. If you say “I feel badly,” it means your fingers are not very sensitive and you can’t tell what you are touching.
If you say “I look different than you,” it means we don’t look alike. But if I say “I look differently than you,” it means my way of looking is not the same as your way.

Is this going to be cloudy all the time?

I'm telling you, these days were hard for me. And they still are. I haven't seen the sun since ancient age, and I feel like's the end of the world. How do people live here, when there's no sun for days?

And here comes Love
As you can see, there's a ray of sunshine 'dancing' on the wall behind me. ;-) BUT it's a shy one! And it is said that Norwich / Norfork is the sunniest place in UK! 

I went to the coffee shop and treat myself with the biggest cream caramel coffee frappe they have in the menu: I needed something to remind me that life's beautiful and ...hmm, sweet! As I was sipping and the caramel melting into my mouth, I got my eyes on a guy entering the shop: he was unusual dressed and wearing an odd hat. Who is this guy? Maybe the rest of the people know him or he's familiar with the staff here, who am I to ask when I just got here?! But maybe that's why I should have ask him before he went out...maybe next time.
Until then, I'll get back to my translations, strange how English doesn't seem so complicated all the sudden. ;)

Another rainy day

photo by B o B ___W h i t e
A rainy day in Norwich

I feel how is like living in UK. The weather is very cloudy and the rain seems to have no beginning and no end. The drop are rolling  over my big window, dancing a crazy dance only they know. And I only can feel it. I see people passing by with big umbrellas, running to get home and have a 5 o'clock tea.
I'm looking at the picture next to my laptop, picturing me and my beloved one at the billiard, and I can't wait for him to return home. He was out of town with work for the end of the week, and I felt his absence while he was out.

The rain has stopped now and the sun tries to over come the clouds, but it seems it's more likely to have a cloudy light then a sunny one.

I have some lower stomach, the sign that the menstruation is coming and I have to take care with food and drinks these days, otherwise I'll suffer more.

I'm going to eat something now, it's past 5pm and I haven't had my launch. Maybe because I had breakfast at 12:30PM! ;)

In wonderland

I mean, what was that!?


The other day I entered Linkedin web page, a site which provides work connection, but not only. And when I've opened the page and signed in, there was my list with the people who visited my page. Who do you think it was there listed?! An old, old, but old as in ancient friend of mine was listed and his name could not pass unnoticed. I only know one man and only one with that name, and the thought that it might be him made me consider sending him a message. Which I actually did next day (meaning yesterday) and said 'hi' to him. First, I wanted to make sure it's him and I'm not confusing things in here. It was him, of course, the answer came in a few hours. THE THING now is that I was expecting him to reply to my email I've sent yesterday night, at about 11pm. He probably read that message, but maybe he does not know WHAT to respond. And I understand that. Maybe he doesn't want to talk to me, he does not want to re-bond the relations, thinking that's no good and no purpose in it. The fact is that he might be right, BUT even so, I STILL WANT TO KNOW HOW HE'S DOING, what's new in his life. After all, it's been about 10 years since we last had a chat. I believe he has children, a wife, a quiet life. He seemed to want to talk to me, but who knows now?!

BUT I CANNOT KNOW FOR SURE IF HE DOES NOT TALK TO ME. I'll wait until tomorrow and see if he gets back. The other night I has all kind of strange dreams, having him as the center of the dream and imaging what he would say to me. D'oh!!! I better get back to work now!