Tuesday, November 9, 2010

say no to panic attaks!

This entry will be kept straight and short. 

No panic attacks. Haven't got any and I'm so pride of myself! I have to tell you I got another blog on wordpress, but still I'm inlove with blogger much more than with wordpress. I'm used with it, maybe, and find it much more easy to use than wordpress. Anyways, It's all about something different and it's public. Not that I can't make this public, is that I don't want to. What's the point?!

About the Kundalini awakening, I find that I can be very well happy after reading some OSHO books, other than Being in love - I had to read Courage - the pleasure to live dangerously, but also Consciousness, Joy, Compassion and others - who made me feel special and made me realize that life is really what you make it to be, what you want it to be. There's no secret to live as you want to, just to do it! Make that necessary changes in your life and everything will start to make sense. You'll see that the difference stays in what you do, think, act! Just act when ever you feel like and don't be afraid! That's all about in Courage, about not being afraid to do things you think are impossible to do! Nothing is really impossible if you think you can do it, if you think that changes - that we are often afraid - are meant to bust our lives in such way that you'll never want to live in this death-life you're living right now!

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Kundalini awakening

Last night I had a panic attack once again.
It was provoked by a book I'm reading right now, Gu茅rison spirituelle et immortalit茅, which presents the Kundalini awakening, very well described in here as a state of human awakening to its deepest inner self. I think what made me enter this panic attack was connecting the books facts with some real fact of my life. In the process, the Kundalini energy is going through all the 7 chakras, from the back lowest point of spinal column, arousing to the last one situated in the head. This process can take a few months, but it can also take a few years, it depends on the person preparation for this state of being. One may be afraid and as we all know already, fear makes us weak and unprepared for the changes. We are afraid to do a thing or another, thinking that may cause a change or changes in our lives, but what we don't want to accept it that changes are inevitable and we have to leave them happen. Let them be. Emerge. 
The process is complicated, and, if you don't realise what is going on with you and your body, you may be considered as insane. With this diagnosis you can only take some pills and medication that will oppress the Kundalini Energy for rising through its last chakra and to illumination: when the Kundalini energy has emerged through the last chakra, the body and mind are relieved and you can then feel the beauty of life: no panic, no stress, no worries, no headache, nothing, but a totally peaced mind and body. The taste of happiness through the spiritual evolution. 

Friday, September 10, 2010

autumn is in town again

these days were more than autumn-like days. I felt I'm in some kind of time capsule when all the sudden I found myself in front of my closet wondering what to wear. can you imagine this? oh, this summer went through very fast, could not wear all my clothes and I don't even have that much! for those who don't know me at all, I'm not a shoppachoooliccc! I really have few clothes, and very few to wear as house clothes. but still, I think this summer was too short. TOOOOO short for me....come on --- what I'm trying to say is that time is too short in this life, even more than that: time is running too fast in that direction. One day is shorten than the other one that just passed away. Time is hitting to 0! Time will come to be infinite, not having the 3 coordinates: past, present, future. There will be something you never have imagined that it can become true. Something unthinkable!

I say hello to a sweet cup of coffee. The sky is cloudy and all I can think of is rain. In fact, some drops when to the cold asphalt. Soon I'll have to take under more work to be done, another project so I can rise my earnings. I have to, or else I'm at the same level and I want to grow a little bit.

kiss you deep - tonight is Leonard Cohen's night :)
oldies, but goldies!

Monday, August 9, 2010

Time for tea, please!

Yes, again another time no posting.
This time is less time as was before. As reading my writings I've noticed some mistakes in the process. But I guess you all got it right.

Well, what happened lately? Very much had happened and very much is going to happen, of course. First of all, I have to complete my last writing and tell you I did not sustained that exam because I was afraid not to pass it, and more than that, I was afraid I'm going to pass it! And this was jut about to happen if I were there to sustain that exam. The admission grades were very low and I'm sure my grade could very well be over 8,50. But I wasn't there. That's it. And I'm even thinking it's better that way. What I'm going to do with medicine? Am I ready for such thing? Can I cope with it? I know, you'll say I worry too much, thinking too much and balancing too much, but this are true issues to think about. Can I manage this? Yes, I can manage everything, but I don't know if I still got the power as I'm hitting to change the 2 with the 3. eR?

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Hello, July is here!

I'm back and ready to post some interesting stories about what happened in the last 2-3 months.

First of all, I have to admit that not everything went as I wanted to: I couldn't apply to medicine (because I already had one faculty finished) and that made me really upset. I calmed down right away when I realized that I didn't study physics so much so I had to pass this, not just be there and see what comes out of it. Anyways, this is my dream, but as any other dream has to be "approachble", reachble somehow.. I'll be back, I have to leave for a few hours. :)

(1:28, July 23, 2010)
I'm back. It' 1:28 in the morning and I have no sleep. I was up till now to finish some translation text that need to be ready tomorrow (meaning today, coz it's past 00!) at 10AM. I have so much to say, but so little words. I just I'm just tired and can concentrate right now, but I'll be back soon with new infos!

see ya!

Monday, April 12, 2010

Kunder Broker - what a joke!

Kunder Broker - What a joke!

This week-end, me and my boyfriend attended an business seminary on how to do business, of course. The only thing that was not said in proper word was that one has to lie a lot in order to achieve her/his goal: to make that person to sign a contract, a life insurance that costs a lot of money (about 2500romanian lei - meaning about 1000$) - an amount that can be hardly paid one time (for the first year) and then quartly. But still, not nice. There are a few people that can pay that amount now when the crisis has come over.

Hear what you want - heh!

Yes, hear what you want to hear, not what you should or what you don't like. The people that held the training were using nice words, forgetting to say what was most important: this is not a job that can be made by anyone. Not anyone can do this kind of job: you have to be persuasive and have a really good view about the products and services provided. Instead of this, we got some bullshit bla-bla talk about the "easy" thing doing business, when the truth what totally different: you have to play the jack with one and another in order to bring them into your teem and then make them understand how it works and then, d'oh!, convince them to continue doing the same! Can you believe that? I mean, this guys have a lot of nervs to do this!

How to get rich when the crisis strikes

Who gets richer on the market in crisis times? Who else than someone who already has a lot of money and can play them very well to achieve the goal of having more and more!!!!?! Some insurance company, some outsourcing company or maybe own your bank and that's it! This guys are only investing in more and more money, wanting to cover all the market, to have more and more consultants to push the things further and further!

I made up my mind

And decided to stay with the health insurances when the moment will come. The only thing for that I'm going to "fight": it will be much more easier to convince people to sign with your company since they have nothing to pay. 2% will be held in the personal health insurance account. Starting with July or August, we don't know for sure- and I'm going to make as much as I can when the start is done, taking into consideration that the amount of money for each insurance signed will be around 40 euros. I just love this, yes. :) And can barely wait. Don't know if we are going to have a proper summer holiday this year, but for sure it will be full. Then, with the money we manage to save, maybe we'll buy something.