Romance into town with a vintage touch

for loolool1987 by lola-8march1982 featuring halter tops

Halter top
reiss.co.uk

Vintage skirt
$48 - sheinside.com

Oscar de la Renta envelope clutch
$1,595 - modaoperandi.com

Yellow jewelry
$25 - topshop.com

Kate Spade floral necklace
$180 - couture.zappos.com

Glamour khaki and silvery accents

Sem título #1460 by sribeiro featuring chain jewelry

Cotton shirt
€56 - modekungen.se

Theyskens theory knit jacket
£464 - farfetch.com

Rag & bone zipper jeans
£210 - net-a-porter.com

Chanel shopping tote
fashionphile.com

Eddie Borgo chain jewelry
$365 - modaoperandi.com

Alexander McQueen silk shawl
£190 - farfetch.com

Little bit of this, little bit of that

We all have dreams, and hopes, and wishes, and we all hope that this or that is going just the way we want it to be. But sometimes you don't get what you want. Sometimes your way is full with surprises, not always pleasant. And when you get that, you tend to blame the destiny or you call yourself a bad-luck person. BUT the fact is that you get what you deserve in life, and if you go out load and all you can give is misfortune and bad thoughts, guess what you're about to receive back?!

I have that fall over the stairs and I'm recovering pretty well and fast after it. At least, I think so. I went to see the doctor and the doctor didn't recomemnd to go and do a x-ray. But I'm going to see her again this Thursday and ask her (again) if it's really not the case to run some x-ray. I'm not a doctor (just yet!), but I can say I'm better then the other day. I have a light pain, which I think it's pretty normal, talking into consideration the fall and the area where it's located. After all, we are talking about my spine here. And the spine supports all the body, all the moves, all the reactions. I am LUCKY, LUCKY, LUCKY! I am tell you this once more BECAUSE I really definitively feel that way. I can walk and I walk pretty good and pretty fast, I just don't want to make any rush movements to put in jeopardy my already damaged spine.

I can say and see this is happening for a reason: all my life I've being trying to figure it out what is what I need to do to be happy, to fulfil my dreams, my wishes, my goal. And yes, this is the problem, I do NOT know what is my personal goal. And nobody can actually find it for me. I have to do it by myself. There are - yes - people that help you recognize your goal, your wishes (yeah, some of us don't even know what they wish for!), your goals and so on. BUT they cannot tell you what to choose, or if they do so, they are broking the holy individual right of being objective, they are broking the law of arbitration by which every single person on this Earth should only choose for himself and not let others decide for him, letting aside children or disorder people. Even though I believe children should also choose for themselves, parents or tutors being the ones that help them decide, but only by seeing what the kid actually wants and have a  gift for, not guiding the little one driven by the parents interests, wishes (to become a doctor, for example), etc.

I'm leaving you with this: Live your life as you want it to be lived now, and don't wait any other moment. Don't wait for tomorrow, for the perfect house, perfect job, perfect husband or wife, perfect marriage (I've heard that too!) or perfect WHAT-SO-EVER! You LIVE FOR NOW, don't waste any minute. And when I say that I mean to live by the good laws of mankind: be kind, be honest, be open, be friendly, do no harm, be magnificent! Be whatever you want to be, just don't hurt other people, because it may come right after you at some point, when you least expect!

And so this week-end...

This week-end I had an accident. And it was bad as I've hurt my spine and had some pain. I was a little scared at first, then realized this ain't gonna help me at all so I just went and thought what to do. Now I'm waiting to see the doctor and run some tests. I believe she'll send me to see a specialist so we can make sure nothing is broken or damaged in there. Well, broken it's pretty sure it isn't because I would be in great pain, but I have to make sure everything it's OK before I move on.

This wasn't the week-end we planned. We were just about to get started with the project when I fall down the stairs. All Saturdays was a pain for me. And a pity I could only watch and do nothing. Well, I have done a little bit and that, but just small things, you can imagine. I AM LUCKY that I am ok now, even though I don't know for sure. Now I'm going to see the doctor.

Vintage ice box

For this project, I did a lot of research and it didn't came up easily to find this information, as I was looking for the wrong term ;-)
But after a little research, I figured out what I am looking for and start fresh. Here is what I've found:

LARGE AUTHENTIC HERRICK ANTIQUE ICE BOX SOLID OAK

A video, not quite an ice box - and it doesn't look like the one we havem but here it is:

Some info about dry ice, here.

Here is THE ANTIQUE REFRIGERATOR SITE, some information about the history of refrigerators ;-)
One miniature refrigerator: 



Vintage antique refrigerator handles Old Antique Fridge Pull

Superb vintage ice box. 

Old stuff forum with ice box. 

Electric OLD refirgerator:

Brilliant idea to refresh an old refrigerator. ;-) 

Still, I find the turquoise one more attractive. 

Antique ice box in good shape.

Beautiful Antique Oak Ice Box --  dates back to the early 1900's I believe---   In great original working condition-- D. Eddy & Sons - Boston, MA OLD Icebox "Automatic" Morrison, ILL T Hinges/Latches  Brass Plate Steel over OAK Description Vintage block ice refrigerator/ice box. Probably 20's era.   Made by DOUBLE DUTY AA in Morrison, Ill.   It was called the 'SUPER STEEL AUTOMATIC'.   Brass plate is original as is everything else in the icebox.   Brass plate boasts that it saves food, chills water, and uses less ice.   It's in superior original condition.   All hinges and latches are perfect. There is absolutely no dings, or dents anywhere in the unit. It's entirely covered with steel wrap coating over solid oak wood.   Note that the inside is as good, (underneath the steel wrap)  if not better than the outside.   Inside door panels are perfect.  All inside liners are fine. Two original wire racks and the original galvanized block ice tray. I pictured a standard 2-wheel dolly next to the unit for size comparison.   It needs a good cleaning and possible refinish if so desired. Put a block of ice inside, and it's functional. It's 42-1/2" high x 32-1/2" wide x 22" deep including the large latches.   About 175 to 200 pounds I'm guessing. It's been stored inside a dry shed for a great number of year.  It's in excellent original condition. It went back inside after the hayfield pictures. Chautauqua ANTIQUE ICE BOX OAK  Original Refrigerator Original papers GREAT ANTIQUE SMALL ICE BOX STYLE  MISSION OAK LIQUOR CABINET GREAT ANTIQUE SMALL ICE BOX STYLE  MISSION OAK LIQUOR CABIN  This is a very nice liquor cabinet.  Beautiful grain, nice brass hardware.  Very old. Dimentions are 32.5"  high by 13.5" wide by 10" deep  (not counting door hardware).  Two compartments, bottle cutouts. Beautiful and authentic piece.  Please see pictures and ask questions. ANTIQUE OAK ICE BOX, ALL ORIGINAL This ice box is in very good shape. Ready  to use and not one of those monsters that are hard to move.  Excellent size and would fit most anywhere. Size: 24" wide x 26" deep x 38" high.   -AGE -1900-1950 (I believe it's early 1900's) More old stuff, here. They say vintage it's back, and it's more sexy then ever!  And we do believe so! ;-)  GE Vintage Refrigerator.   Type CA-1-A16 Serial number 4416444 Built approximately in the early 1930s. Good operating condition Original owner Similar item was sold on TLCs Pawn Shop for $6000 after being retro-fitted Video showing some old tehnical book about 1892's refrigerators. Historic cooking school, an website made for those who care about history ;-) And the most important: the ice box history since 1860's!!!!

Are you ready to die?

Photo from The Wall Street Journal

Of course, we all know the answer to this question. We are not prepared to die, not now, not ever. If we knew when that will occur, we would do anything that stays in our power to prevent that. Even so, I'm pretty sure it won't last for ever. If you got spare from an dangerous situation and you're still alive, that means you were meant to pass through that and be alive. Moreover, I believe you have a mission and have to accomplish that mission. But that's another story.

Back to the title question, I think people are afraid of death because they don't know what's on the other side, not because they are actually scared.

So you pass into the other dimension and now you are dead here. Your family is moaning for you, you can see all of them and it is said you can even hear them, but you cannot say a thing: you're dead. Besides the moan, families concur a very difficult task, the one you may avoid if you put your personals into order. For that, all you have to do is to gathered together all your documents, papers, certificates and so on. Of course, you don't have to forget about your will, if the case. All that should be kept under a key, and only one or two persons should be invested with a copy. Among this documents and folders, you may want to consider these ones:

• Birth Certificate
• mMrriage / Divorce (if applicable) papers
• Mortgage Contracts
• Life/ / Medical Insurance contracts
• Medical situation
• Bank account informations
• Proof of ownership

Keep them all in order, so that your family could find and use them if necessary.
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The difference between "bad" and "badly"

As I  say the other day, I'm constantly looking for inspiration and new interesting stuff. I just found one of these interesting things in the writing niche, in a blog where is explained the difference between "bad" and "badly". I think I know the difference and would have use the proper word without actually knowing or thinking too much, just after the way it sounds. I'm not an English native, so this article is of a great help. ;-)

The text article:

Here’s something that writers often mix up. When you use verbs that express a state of being rather than an action, like become,feel, seem, smell, sound, taste, you follow them with an adjective, so they are not treated like adverbs. Do you remember the rule about adverbs—they usually have ly at the end? Here’s how you use these types of verbs:
I am fine, he became sad, she feels bad [not badly], they felt ill, you seem happy.
If you say “the fish smells bad,” you mean it stinks. If you say “the fish smells badly,” it means the fish has a poor sense of smell.
If you say “I feel bad,” it means you are sad or sorry. If you say “I feel badly,” it means your fingers are not very sensitive and you can’t tell what you are touching.
If you say “I look different than you,” it means we don’t look alike. But if I say “I look differently than you,” it means my way of looking is not the same as your way.

Design and inspiration

I started to look and look further for design inspirational blogs that bring my creativity at a high level and let my mind fly away. I so much love to read all those blogs that are so inspired! Here I had to 'bookmark' this blog: I love the colors and structure and I bookmarked into my fav from the very first second! The link is about vintage bathrooms with class. We are so modern nowadays that we totally forget that old 'glam' a vintage room can have: a bath tube made for special relaxation, a white-so-simple furniture, made from real genuine wood and no other "fake" materials. I, I mean I find it very romantic and sweet! I would love to refurbish old furniture and give it a new face. But here where I live most of the people don't appreciate this "trend" and continue to buy new, poor quality furniture that lasts only a few years, then go again and buy a new one and so on. Even though, I've seen people interested in old stuff, especially if it's a family object. All I have to do is to 'tease' the marketing and see if there is a real potential. But first I'm going to start with my old refrigerator. ;-) You'll see, I'm not going to say anything else!

Also see this page, and this, and this...and this, and maybe this...and you might like this too... ;-)

Inspiration comes along

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What can I say? I'm inspired by people and I inspire other people. And when that thing happens, I feel I have given my tribute to the world. It doesn't mean it's just a small thing, all it matters is what that thing means in the people's eyes.

For the last 3-4 months I've been thinking how can I start doing something that actually offers me satisfaction and, of course, a decent income. And I've started to dig even further when I've realised that I love being a designer. A jewels designer, interior designer, fashion designer....And for some time I got my eyes on pinterest.com, a site that produces a great amount of incredible DIY craft ideas that can be easily turned into real project with just a few bucks and a little bit of imagination.

You can find my inspirational pinterest collections right here. I invite you to follow my pins and let yourself inspired by the unicity of every project!

Letter of the week (5) Why do we fight ourselves?

I got home this morning and found myself in no mood. I mean I have that feeling that I don't want to work, don't want to study (even though I should!), I'm not in the mood!

I wonder why we people tend to create problems where there are not: we choose to work in a field that does not represent us and then we tend to end up miserably! Have I said miserably? That is a nice word for what I mean here! Let's see my own example: I am a translator, but even so, I'm not happy doing translations all day long. I mean, I get bored. I want some action. Not too much action, like I don't wanna plunge myself with the parachute or something, but I do want some action in my life. I did a good thought about it and answered to the question: what do I do with my life? And what do I really want to do professionally? Am I really meant to be a doctor or is it just a thought of mine going crazy into my head and bumping up and down like nuts? DO I really want to follow 6 years of medicine school (here there are 6 years, then the residency according to the speciality, between 3 and 7 years) and then end up with no kids at 38? I mean, do I really, really want that? I thought about it. I would love to be a doctor because I could help people, I will not transform myself into that doctor who pretends money to practice medicine. I would have my own particular cabinet and work for the people, even if sometimes it will mean less money and more working hours. After all, this is what it means to be a doctor: sacrifice yourself and do good to the people. OF COURSE, I'm dreaming to a decent medical system where doctors are treated with respect and have a DECENT income, BUT who knows when that will be?! I still hope that starting now medicine and having the 6 years ahead will probably change something into the system. We expect something, a miracle, but in the same time we let our guvernors to do whatever they want with our money, with our country, to sell it piece by piece and let us with nothing. WE are a brave nation, where is that bravery and ambition to do things right, to fight for your country and die for it if is necessary so others cannot take it and make it their own!??!?!!??!?! I keep wonder that and I find one and only one answer: that of the "hungry" for power people. Hungry for money, more money and more, more, more money! And what Carmen Harra says about the end of the financial system is not that far away: I do believe this system must go off and be replaced with a better one. It has been proven that is not working and still, we hang on it because of the habitude, we are afraid of changing things.

Back to what I want in life....it's simple, but yet complicated: I want to do whatever I like and do it with love and devotion, so that what comes out of my hands and thought of my mind to be perfect, integrated with the client's idea and preferences. And I want to earn decent money from it. I do want to create handmade earrings, brooches, all kind of other small accessories for women and not only, I want to be an interior designer, a fashion designer. ...I see myself reconditioning old furniture (I have a project on going right now, you won't believe how great this will come!) and create new small furniture with my lover and partner and best friend. I see myself painting walls in different stylish ways, like painting rustic or vintage flowers, creating designs with stripes and creating 3D effect of the walls. For that, we do have to start somewhere and not think too much of the money. We have to make some sacrifices and go along with the flood and see what comes out of it. YOU need COURAGE, determination, inspiration, force, and - of course - money to begin with.

YES, I do believe that we, small people, can make the change. BUT only if we have enough courage to step out of the ordinary work-home-sleep routine and actually do something to abolish this slavery that is working for an employer, for a company! We need to come back to basics and start from the scratch. Do our own business, a small one that can help us live our lives manwise!

Have a great Tuesday!

The naked truth

I come inspired by the naked truth about you and I thought: why not write "the naked truth about myself" :-) ?

The biggest mistake a woman can do

The biggest mistake women do! When they feel lonely: they find a man, stick with him no matter what and end up miserably! Where is happiness in this picture? Theres just an illusion! I better live alone than single in a relationship.

So much to say

To write about your life is not an easy thing to do. It takes a lot nerv to write without being afraid of the hard judgement of other people, specially that of your friends. It's pretty hard to open your heart and call the things on their name. It's pretty hard. I know that because I felt how it's like when I first started to put my thoughts in here. I still have that strange feeling of being naked in front of the whole world. BUT that's the thing: when you're not afraid any more, that's the moment when you start to actually live this life! because it means you don't care about the things people believe about you. It's like 'who cares, really?' YOU don't. And there we go.


The reason why I write about this is because people have this particular fear of opening for the world or even for their friends. I have a friend who's afraid to start writing a diary. She is afraid that somebody may read it and laugh about her, judge her thoughts or feelings and most of all, publish all that online. Even so, she said she'll rather start an online private blog than to have a paper diary. She feels this way that she's safe. And she probably is, because I believe she'll not publish under her real name. 


I've opened the computer with the mind set for writing something here, but this is not what I meant to write in the first place. I'm past due with the letter of the week and the latest news about the admission simulation and other things that happened and I haven't got the chance to write about. And I feel I'm going to forget the first impression and I don't want that. Like for example, what I felt like when I've seen the results from the admission: I was expecting a low grade, but not that low. But it was a fantastic 30 and something experience I'm really proud I've tried. I will come with details about the faculty tour and the anatomy dissection class, about the bodies, the students in the pre-residency or early residency doctors who kindly explained us what it means to be a medical student. 

Little bit craziness in your life won't hurt

Just picture yourself at the edge of life: what have you concur? oh, besides kids, wife/husband, a house, a career?_) I mean the things you've done only for your own pleasure?! Those are the ones that counts here. No, not to be selfish, but don't do everything for the other people. ;)

I've come to the conclusion that I am happier than most of the people are. Why's that?! And how's that, taking into consideration the fact that I'm not married, have no kids, no house to call my OWN (I'm still living in my parents' house), no car and most of all, no career!? And how does one know is happy when he/she really is?! What is happiness after all? It depends on who you ask, but if you ask me, happiness is something we all struggle for every day, but few of us know how to recognize its symptom. The reason why I'm writing this post is this book: Living Sensationally !

Is this going to be cloudy all the time?

I'm telling you, these days were hard for me. And they still are. I haven't seen the sun since ancient age, and I feel like's the end of the world. How do people live here, when there's no sun for days?

And here comes Love
As you can see, there's a ray of sunshine 'dancing' on the wall behind me. ;-) BUT it's a shy one! And it is said that Norwich / Norfork is the sunniest place in UK! 

I went to the coffee shop and treat myself with the biggest cream caramel coffee frappe they have in the menu: I needed something to remind me that life's beautiful and ...hmm, sweet! As I was sipping and the caramel melting into my mouth, I got my eyes on a guy entering the shop: he was unusual dressed and wearing an odd hat. Who is this guy? Maybe the rest of the people know him or he's familiar with the staff here, who am I to ask when I just got here?! But maybe that's why I should have ask him before he went out...maybe next time.
Until then, I'll get back to my translations, strange how English doesn't seem so complicated all the sudden. ;)

These days in Norwich

Only for days left for you to visit the festival: Norfolk & Norwich Festival, of course! Here is the brochure !

You'll see odd creatures, hear strange noises coming out of nowhere and creatures from other words. ...and most of all, you'll enjoy the delicious food and drinks from the 9 am to late night. :-) Too bad I cannot take photos! And now I'm looking for a photo I cannot find!:(

Another rainy day

photo by B o B ___W h i t e
A rainy day in Norwich

I feel how is like living in UK. The weather is very cloudy and the rain seems to have no beginning and no end. The drop are rolling  over my big window, dancing a crazy dance only they know. And I only can feel it. I see people passing by with big umbrellas, running to get home and have a 5 o'clock tea.
I'm looking at the picture next to my laptop, picturing me and my beloved one at the billiard, and I can't wait for him to return home. He was out of town with work for the end of the week, and I felt his absence while he was out.

The rain has stopped now and the sun tries to over come the clouds, but it seems it's more likely to have a cloudy light then a sunny one.

I have some lower stomach, the sign that the menstruation is coming and I have to take care with food and drinks these days, otherwise I'll suffer more.

I'm going to eat something now, it's past 5pm and I haven't had my launch. Maybe because I had breakfast at 12:30PM! ;)

A perfect rainy day

This seems to be a perfect rainy day. I'm all alone, enjoying a glass of green juice/smoothie and making the most of it: relaxing in front of the computer writing this. Yeah, you probably would say that I should lay in bed with a cappuccino or hot chocolate. Maybe, but I got up today thinking that I should make this Saturday mine. And this is what I just did till now, when talking a break to finish my translation, then eat some almond cheese with tomatoes and union and ..uh, a little piece of avocado. .And now I'm going back to the kitchen to finish things up: meaning wash the dishes and prepare some avocado pate!!! And...ummm, some sponge cake,,maybe! I'll leave this open while I keep myself busy and come back to add a few lines and maybe pictures with food! yam!

I have the cakes in the oven and I'm waiting for them to bake! I also have a terrible (for me) headache, and I say terrible because I don't suffer from this very often, in fact, I'm even wondering if I don't have a low magnesium-calcium level or I'm not drinking too much water... :( Going to see the cake..

And the cakes are ready: not so sweet as I wanted them to be, just because I didn't want to put too much sugar and have them too sweet. BUT I can drop some fine sugar on them and they are sooo yummy! The thing is that doing house keeping and all those raw creams and pates took my appetit for sweeties. I have a coffee next to me, the headache is still there, but I would say the pain is a little bit softer than earlier. STILL, I cannot keep wondering where this pain is coming from!? I 've also took 3 calcium-magnesium pills (you can take up to 5 a day) and I was hoping this shall pass. But here we go again, I really feel dizzy, tired (I have worked a lot these days, been up early and went to bed late)

I'm having a bite of this nuts and cocoa cake and sip of this fantastic coffee I've made myself. BUT I really think I should lay in bed for a few hours or so, and even try to get some sleep. I will post some photos with the cakes later ;-)



EDIT: May 20, 2012
Here are the photos with my cakes :-) I made just two, so I won't eat too much of this! LOL

These two should be two hearts, one with blueberries and other similar fruits, and the other one with cocoa heart and nuts! Nuts about you! ;-) But they ended up being a little bit distorted - anyhow, I don't know where the blueberry one disappeared because I couldn't find it in the fridge. I guess my mum took it or my dad and eat it all ! Or some guesses came in and she offered them the treat...with lots of sugar on top, I may guess, because, as I was telling you, I have used so little amount of sugar!

Here is the core, so flossy! That's all I had, because the rest was "stolen"!

Design. Interior Design

Design! No matter what, it's all about creative stuff! And, of course, something that can be use somehow!
This is one of the many passions I have: interior design. That fact that I've never finished an architecture school made me wonder about my abilities; I am ready to make a change, I'm trying different things (among which is medicine), but I am ready to start over?

Here are some web pages I've found, and wanna check back later.
London, Design Museum: http://designmuseum.org/ (http://designmuseum.org/exhibitions/2012/designs-of-the-year-2012)

The design observer group: http://designobserver.com/

Milk? No, it's Design Milk! http://design-milk.com/

And the one that includes many industries and I love it: Design org: http://design.org/


AND, OF COURSE, THIS ONE: FAB! http://designmuseumshop.com/

At the Design Museum shop we sell the most beautiful, innovative and intelligently designed products and publications from around the world. All proceeds go towards funding the museum.

I am love. I am happy. I can do it. I am a YES person!

Ring, ring!

This phone call should ring my bell: it's time to conceive a baby!

A dear friend of mine, who is trying so hard to conceive a baby for about 2 years now, has just phoned. She's been through many surgeries and procedures, but still she cannot get pregnant. Her husband is potent, but the spermatozoons are not quite so 'jumping' as they should be, and one of her fallopian tube is sunken. :(

I cannot help wondering how it will be for us, but I have a clue: we will have NO problem at all in conceiving a baby! :-) I know that deep inside my heart, it's like something my angels told me and I truly believe it is so.

05/15/2012 - 5:52pm,
I just sent the other two files that needed revision (and they actually needed a lot of revision!) and now I'm back to my daily translation!

A new project

While writing this post can't help wondering how fast will I finish this new project: I'm waiting for the texts to be sent by email, about 30.000 characters for translation (15 pages) and 20.000 (10 pages) for reviewing. And I'm a little bit anxious about it, even if I know what the text look like, because the person who wants them translated sent me a sample of it last week, on Friday. Now, we shall see. :-)

LATER EDIT:

And the work started a few minutes later when I've received the first 3 files for revision. I returned the job after an hour, the texts were pretty short and general, so I was easy for me to correct them and deliver.
Now I'm on 'round two', with another two large files, one it's 7 pages and the other 13 pages long. I'll deliver them by tomorrow, so I have to go back to work. Not to mention I still have my usual daily on going project text that I have to deliver by tomorrow at 10AM.






I am love. I am happy. I can do it. I am a YES person!

Relocating may not be the key

Have no time, nor the patience to actually write about it, but I've found these web pages to meditate on: Where are we running and why we want to move: I want to live and work in Spain, UK citizens move in Spain as well looking for a better life, Italians want to live in UK, Bulgarian look forward to France and Israilians are relocating where ever they feel it's better, and for them anywhere else is better than the native country. BUT WHAT are we all hitting?! We all look for a better life, but we don't actually see the real problem: any place of the world might be hit by recession, and it wll be at some point, sooner or later. The economy as we know it and the monetary system are wrong, we have to change something. In this rhythm of consuming and over consuming the goods and services the Earth itself as well as the nations will go down. We cannot go back, but forward. And the forward step is to change something. We cannot continue like this.

Here are some web pages to consider: read them, study them, meditate on them!

1. http://money.cnn.com/2012/04/30/news/economy/spain-recession/index.htm
2. http://www.expatarrivals.com/spain/moving-to-spain
3. http://www.shelteroffshore.com/index.php/a/b/living-in-spain/
4. The one talking for itself: http://www.costablancauncovered.com/expat-stories/I-hate-Spain.html 
5. Moving Truck Courtesy of the Recession: What it's like to relocate because of the downturn. An articles about Americans. http://www.doublex.com/section/work/moving-truck-courtesy-recession

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Letter of the week (4) - I know you from somewhere

We've spent a very nice Saturday in the park, first in the morning, then we come back in the evening. And the evening walk was even more delightful because of the soft wind blowing so nice after a hot day. If the evening walk was dedicated to move and stretch&yoga poses, the morning one was for hot pictures. Yes, I love this HOT word: HOT!!! It's already summer here, we love to walk in the park and wear soft transparent clothes. I have a lots of pictures today, about 30 or so, but only a few we really to die for. One of them is shown below and I gotta tell you I'm getting obsessed with detail photography! I love putting details in the focus and transform a simple ordinary photo into a stunning one!

I know you from somewhere is the title for the Letter of the week, but I have no inspiration nor the time to write this now. It's almost midnight and I'm pretty tired. I'll get back to this, I have so much to tell you!

Night out - thoughts in!

As I was hitting back home, my thoughts were jumping up and down my brain and I couldn't help wondering what's he doing tonight. A sip of coffee was still in my red cup. I have open the window to get some fresh air, but the noise outside is really getting my thoughts away. I hear dogs barking and people laughing. It's like Saturday night, except it's Thursday, but you can tell the temperature is high and people started to spend more time outdoors than they usually spend. And I know for sure that they were anxious for the summer to come!

Tonight I was down town with my girls, and we had some super cool time. One of girls is getting marry on June 30 this year and we are losing her from the 'not-married' club. She's so excited and so happy! I wonder what happiness is to her: a marriage? children? a brand-new house? I know for sure what is happiness to me: It means one word: FREEDOM. A word that most of women find it very hard to digest, somehow threatening, because they associate this word with being unfaithful. And I don't blame them - it's just that at some point they over react and that's not good for the relationship they have. And maybe because women have so many great expectations, they are so broken when the man that sworn to be close for the rest of their lives step outside the matrimonial bed. They don't know that we human are polygamists - we are meant to love more than one person at the time, and we are perfectly capable to love a person and to feel drawn by another!!! That is SEXUAL attraction and it's perfectly normal! But tell that to a very conservator person and she or he will laugh in your face or will get so angry that you'll wish not to have opened the subject...ever!

While I was getting closer to my house, my mind begin to think about other dear friend of mine who left me with no contact about his life whatsoever. He lives very close to my house and I get to see him from time to time, just by passing by his house. He never felt the urge to see what I am doing...or maybe he was searching for me other the internet. Maybe. But I don't think so. He totally disappeared from my life a few years ago, more like 5?! and never talked to me since then. I feel left behind, I feel very little, but I know it's not worth the pain. As I'm writing this, I figured out one thing: maybe that's why I feel so not capable of doing this or that, because he made me feel (indirectly) I cannot, after being the one that inspired me to graduate the language university!!! But the way he treated me, how he left me with no explanation, all this could have affect me in some negative way and I never thought about it! All this had a great and deep impact on my self-confidence. It's good that I meditate about this. When I make the connections between persons, things and situations, something deep inside me says "thanks for noticing it!" And YEAS, I really feel like when discovering the world! ;-) LOL!

I have so much to say, I want to write about so many things, BUT I feel tired and I have to return to my other words, the one paying my bills. :-) 

Letter of the week (3) Nornal? what do you know...?

I was telling you the other day about that guy from  who contacted me after so many years, but who didn't had the courage to write me back. Well, guess what!? He replied at some point, more confused than he was before. OF course, he was not expecting me too see that he was looking for me on the internet, even though he admitted he did a search from time to time to see what's new in my life. And how I have my very personal page and Facebook and twitter and stuff, it was easy for him to find out one thing or another.

BUT the thing now is that he doesn't know if to continue talking to me or not. He is confused. And I've sent him a second email saying he has to calm down, not worry so much and stuff like that. But the fact is that telling him not to worry made me really nervous. I was really, BUT really calm, neutral, with no "thoughts of complications", just wanted to chat and see what's new in his life, and all the sudden I've realised that he made me somehow wonder if this is OK to continue or not. And of course my logic mind was telling me "no, of course it's not OK to continue!" But then what?! I should let this thing go, just like that?! I mean, it's pretty easy to say it, but hard to do it. What if he gets into this way too much and "de-focus" on his real life?! That could be it. And he probably feels that way, he feels he could lose his head and he's OF COURSE  afraid of this. And prefers not to get complicated. BUT then, let's just say I have never see that he was looking for me, do you think it's normal for a married guy with a kid to look for me online from time to time to see what I'm doing!?

I guess not. And he knows it. BUT even so, I still want to know more about him. The curious mind made me wonder all those details that come into hand when you have a close friend, but are so hard to guess when you're miles away!

Anyway, I've decided to write another email. I cannot leave things like this, I have to end it somehow or continue it the other way around. Whatever it is, it will be complication-free, because I want clear, categoric messages. And this is what it will be. Let's see now what shall I write now. 

We need to face big challenges in order to make this life worth living!

Hey you there,

Watch this video and follow her story: she quit her stable job just to figure it out what she was meant to do with this life! And I believe we should do the same. I mean, I've started, I'm half way, don't know where I am hitting, but still going. And I have applied to that Elance country representative position I've told you about. This could be it. What if? I will never know if I don't try! It could be a big fail or a HUGE step forward. Time will tell. But I'm telling you, I can picture myself out there, speaking in front of all those people in the brainstorming chamber and making them wanting for more. because I'll have to make people wish and struggle for a freelance job rather than a stable corporatist job. 

So this is it. Check it out and tell me what's you think! I haven't finished watching the video, but I just felt I have to share this with you before I lose my inspiration and forget to tell you about.

What else is to be said? We need to face big challenges in order to make this life worth living!

PS. I hope the page shows very well, let me know if you cannot see the video! 

Love Peace